This essay, reflecting on what the educational journey
at a place like Calvin College is all about, was written to the Calvin
Board of Trustees by Chip Pollard for his reappointment as professor
of English.
In my second year of graduate school at University of Virginia, I shared
an office with Mike, a sixth-year graduate student whose area of research
expertise was the same as mine—British modernism. I was a new
teacher, so I would often pepper him with questions about how he organized
courses, graded student work and handled classroom dynamics. During
one of those conversations, he summarized his pedagogical approach by
saying: “Our students are still Victorians. They believe in God,
their family, their country and their own success. Our task is to make
them Modernists, to make them skeptical of all that seems certain. College
is like the shipwreck of the Pequod in Moby Dick. Some of the students
remain defiant, like Tashtego nailing his red flag to the mast, as their
ideals are sucked into the vortex of skepticism while most of them become
Ishmaels, surviving by clinging to their coffins of irony, their newly
adopted positions that enable them to watch from a distance as their
ideals sink below the horizon. In either case, we remain the Ahabs,
leading this crew to a destruction of innocence.”
While it is an extreme metaphor, it is not completely idiosyncratic
or secular. One hears of a person’s faith being “shipwrecked”
by college or other life experience, and teachers, even here at Calvin,
sometimes boast of their ability to disabuse students of their simple
assumptions about life or faith. It is also a metaphor that captures
the stakes and the risk of education. However, it is a metaphor that
troubles me. As with Ahab’s pursuit of the whale, there seems
to be an unrecognized hubris that animates the confidence in undermining
another’s beliefs, an unexamined certainty about uncertainty.
Alternatively, I have spoken with parents and colleagues who speak
of Christian higher education as a haven from the dangers of the secular
university—with its Bacchanalian dorm life, its relativist, “postmodern”
curriculum and its nihilist professors. Indeed, in this view, a school
such as Calvin is more like Noah’s Ark, a safe place for young
adults to ride out the storm of a decadent culture and emerge two-by-two
as mature and productive citizens of the Kingdom. Again, there is some
truth to this metaphor, for the education and experience at Christian
colleges should be recognizably different from their secular counterparts.
There are doctrinal statements and community commitments that establish
different boundaries for ideas and actions at these institutions. However,
this metaphor also troubles me because it too readily assumes that undergraduate
education can and should be made safe, that we can or should sequester
students from all potentially dangerous ideas, people or experiences.
Instead of a shipwreck or Noah’s Ark, college education seems
to me much closer to a whitewater-rafting trip. Granted it may be merely
self-delusional to envision myself as a fit, deeply tanned person in
his mid-20s rather than as the monomaniacal Captain Ahab or the 600-year-old
patriarch Noah, but I trust not. While I have only taken a few whitewater-rafting
trips, several phrases of advice offered on those trips have helped
me think about the mission of Christian higher education and about my
role as a professor.
I do not like being cold, which is a liability in rafting because many
trips occur on rivers fed by melting snow and glaciers. On my first
trip, I determined to insulate myself from the 54-degree water by putting
on several layers of clothes under my life preserver and by wearing
a blue waterproof poncho over all of it. As my teenage sons were quick
to point out, I looked like a blue Pillsbury Dough Boy. When the river
guide saw me, he laughed and said: “The best way to keep warm
is to ride ‘skin to the wind.’ You get wet on this trip,
but you dry off quicker and warm up faster the less you have on.”
Similarly, there is a tendency among people of faith to try to insulate
themselves and others from experiences and ideas that could chill us
to the core, the sufferings of life, the honest expression of disbelief,
and the petty and terrible evil within. We clothe ourselves in reputation,
respectability and wealth, and then complacently adhere to beliefs without
reflection. In the end, we look ridiculous trying so hard to stay dry
in a world of suffering. In response, Christian higher education should
train students to become spiritually and intellectually resilient in
a world that is broken, not shield them from that brokenness. That training
often involves students developing a critical empathy for people and
ideas that have the potential to challenge, even break, their sense
of self. However, this training should be conducted in faith, not in
fear, because those who are more deeply aware of this world’s
brokenness are often better prepared to respond to it.
Education, like rafting, also works best when the participants work
together. When water flows over a large, submerged rock, the resulting
hydraulics cause a riptide behind the rock, a “hole” or
“keeper wave” that can trap a raft in dangerously buffeting
waves. The backside of the hole builds up water under the “high
side” of raft until the raft flips over. Everyone in the raft
must do two things to avoid this problem: they must paddle together
so that the boat is moving faster than the current of the river and
those on the “high side” of the raft must “lean into
the wave” to break through the riptide. This advice seems straightforward
enough when one is sitting on the shore listening to the guide, but
it is strikingly counterintuitive when facing a seven- or eight-foot
wall of water. The typical novice rafter will take his paddle out of
the water and lean away from the wave, a natural reaction of self-preservation.
The guide and other members of the boat will then quickly remind the
new rider of his collective obligation. Similarly, Christian higher
education is a community activity, which works best when everyone is
pulling in a similar direction. Faculty, staff and students work hard
together in serving, reading, writing and thinking both inside and outside
the classroom, and they must accept responsibility to hold each other
accountable to the community standards in a gentle, wise and consistent
manner. We should be encouraging each other to “lean into the
wave” of the next book project, the arduous class assignment,
the challenging honors thesis, the difficult administrative task or
the overwhelming personal trial. Indeed, the shared achievement of rafting
or education is one of the most gratifying rewards of participating
in these activities.
Whitewater-rafting is not always a story of achievement: people fall
out; rafts flip over; participants are hurt, even killed. A vibrant
Christian education involves analogous risks. Indeed, Christian colleges
should perhaps revise their promotion materials to include a pre-trip
warning similar to the one delivered by one of my whitewater-rafting
guides: “Listen. This is not Disneyland. We are not on a mechanical
track. Students will encounter powerful thinkers and ideas that have
been known to knock people off-balance, even to the point of questioning
their beliefs about themselves, about the world and about God. This
experience may cause injury to one’s spiritual, emotional and
intellectual life, even a loss of faith.” Grappling with alternative
explanations of human origin, alternative religious worldviews or alternative
epistemologies can upset even the most grounded of individuals; students
should not, however, be left to rescue themselves. Faculty and staff
should anticipate the challenges of college life and be ready to advise
and respond to students in trouble, recognizing, of course, that not
all troubles begin in college and that not all students are looking
to be saved.
Again, the river guide’s advice to those who fall out of the
raft, “swimmers” as they are affectionately known, is instructive
in thinking through how to help students survive an intellectual, personal
or theological crisis. Swimmers are taught to stay near the raft where
help is at hand, and troubled students should be encouraged to stay
close to people of faith. Swimmers are also instructed to float downstream
with their feet up so as not to become ensnarled in the boulders and
tree limbs on the bottom of the river, debris that can cause permanent
injury. Similarly, students should be trained how to maintain a position
through a crisis that minimizes the risk for life-long emotional, physical
or spiritual damage. Finally, swimmers are reminded to look for the
guide in the raft who will be standing ready to throw the rescue rope.
Faculty and staff should also be prepared to extend words of encouragement
that offer students a way to regain their balance.
Having a trustworthy guide is instrumental in this journey. A student
should want someone who has experience on the river, a person who knows
the field intimately, including the difficult ideas in the class, the
prevailing currents of the discipline, and the best position to steer
the class through a difficult stretch of water. A student should want
someone who has experience on longer and more difficult rapids, a person
who is actively involved in the scholarly issues of the material to
bring a depth of knowledge to their teaching. And, a student should
want someone who has experience with people, a person who knows how
to counsel and cajole them to navigate successfully this time in their
lives. Such a guide earns the trust of others, a worthy goal that takes
a long time to achieve and must be continually earned.
Of course, it is the thrill and personal challenge of whitewater-rafting,
not the potential hazards, which draw most people to the river. The
best of a student’s college experience will offer similar thrills
and challenges—the thrill of mastering organic chemistry, statistics
or continental philosophy or the personal challenge of getting along
with a difficult roommate, of adapting in a semester abroad in Honduras
or of mourning the death of a friend. And a Christian college education
should offer more than just the isolated thrill of a vacation excursion.
Rightly done, it develops the habits, skills and knowledge that enable
a person to serve in God’s kingdom for a lifetime.
Often rafting companies end their trips just after the most scenic
and the most demanding part of the river, offering their customers a
memory that will last. Syllabi can take a similar shape. Imagine a guide
at the end of a trip, the bent light of a setting sun deepening the
golden tone of the canyon walls and the pick-up spot just around the
next corner after the last big rapid. Pausing in the quiet water to
offer a few words of advice, he relishes the expectancy in the eyes
of those in his raft. He squints in the fading light to pick out the
route through the rapid and then pushes off. Smiling at the exclamations
of the rowers, he steers the raft through the final large wave and then
points out the eagle’s nest on the bluff. As they pull into the
pick-up spot, the raft is abuzz with stories of the trip. The people
move off to the passenger bus and back to their lives, but the guide
stays behind to pack up his gear and transport it back to the beginning
of the river for the next day’s journey—tired, content and
deeply grateful.
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